Tonight was a definite breakdown. Scares me. Does that mean that the meds aren't working? Does the dosage need to be upped? Something else added into the cocktail? I felt as though I had no control over myself. I felt so heartbreaking, overwhelmingly sad and nothing made sense again. My head was filled with self recrimination and doubt and guilt. It is hard to swim thru all of that. And other people don't necessarily understand. And there is such a stigma attached. I have always maintained that this is as much my fault as diabetes are to a diabetic. As he needs insulin injected into his body, I need mine.